Nutrition class was another story... i have little tolerance at this point for violence especially from the young boys because i see exactly what happens when they grow up and take that violence out on their wives and sisters. The children in nutrition are so sweet and SO deprived of many things and the fact that they cant help but beat up on each other both makes me mad and breaks my heart... because you know that they are being beaten on and burned and starved at home. Prayers for patience their and just renewed love so that i can show them the love that they are clearly not getting!
Katie left today, so our small team is getting even smaller! Last time we took Breanna and Kate to the airport it took all of my willpower to keep myself from running and jumping on the plane with them. I just wanted to be in America! but this time i really was so content just dropping katie off and staying in India. Its about time i got used to this place!
After we got back from the airport I went to go see Leila, my friend on the beach. She blows me away everyday that i visit her! She is the most joyful person i have ever met and she has nothing to be joyful about most the time, being completely honest. If any of us were transported from our comfortable american life to selling things on the beach for a living, not knowing where our next meal would come from and never having money to spare with a husband that has beaten you in the past when you were pregnant even- and who isnt around half the time... We would not be joyful! but everyday, without fail, leila tells me with a big smile on her face about her day... how her husband is gone and she has to walk back alone in the dark, many days she has no business and does not know how she will feed her children. But she is so trusting and so joyful it amazes me. I have nothing else to say because theres no way to explain her joy except that is comes totally from the Lord... because the world doesnt provide that kind of joy! Especially her world. When i left her today on the beach to walk back to the house I just started crying... i couldnt help it. And thats when i realized the truth of what ive been reading about in "dangerous surrender"... when you surrender to the Lords will and ask him to open up your heart so that you can love on these people with His love... he will open up your heart and you will be able to love on his people in an incredibly new way. But you will also hurt for them in an astonishing way... my heart breaks for Leila because i want her life to be better for her! I want her to have food to eat and a secure home and a loving husband. I feel like im rambling here and pulling a lot from this book im reading that no one else has reference to... but i encourage everyone to read it (Dangerous surrender by Kay Warren)! I honestly have to give myself a pep talk every time i open it (ive only read the first chapter and am scared to keep reading) because it will challenge you to really look at how you are caring for other people around the world and it will show you how much you arent but how much we should be! Giving to other people and caring about other people, hurting people, isnt comfortable, Im starting to realize.
Speaking of uncomfortable...For those of you that have been asking... here is a picture of our toilet! Its called a squatty... pretty self explanatory. how do you flush it you may ask? that little faucet with the bucket in the corner... you fill it up and dump it down. Welcome to India!
Of course now that ive said i had nothing new to share... i have seemed to ramble on for quite a while. Ill leave on that note, thank you for all the encouragement... as always.
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